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All of these are from another blog, but just in case anyone is wondering why I’ve been practically dead this weekend:
These are all seperate posts over a period of time from 12:30 pm Saturday to of 10 am Sunday…
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Dog-sitting a sick puppy…
Yesterday my sister asked me to dog-sit her puppy, which I agreed to, seeing how I love animals and such. THEN she brings the puppy in and she is super lethargic and barely moving and breathing really heavy and says, “Oh, be prepared, she might die… doctors don’t know what’s wrong with her and she’s really dehydrated.”
Really? You couldn’t have told me that beforehand? I can’t handle animals dying, and I have a really bad feeling that this poor puppy is going to… She’s so sweet but she can hardly even walk a few feet before she collapses and you have to stand her back up.
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So I left her in the bathroom because she didn’t want to sleep on my bed and it’s not safe to wonder around in my room. I layed on a towel with her for a bit, then she fell asleep so I came in here. Just went to check on her and found her passed out behind the toilet, all four of her legs spread out to her sides, and I honestly thought she was dead. I had to pick her up and make her drink water from a dropper.
This is pretty depressing, I really don’t know how she’s going to survive, her gums are practically white.
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I seriously don’t know about this puppy, you guys, I don’t think she’s going to make it. She just collapses and she’s only been able to keep down a syringe of chicken broth.
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So…
While I was watching the dog it started having bloody diareah everywhere… mom finally got home and we called the vet and he met us at his office.
She has parvo… she has a 50/50 chance of survival, he got an IV and under the skin fluids in her tonight and will have to do this twice a day for the next 4 or 5 days and we’ll see what happens.
If this puppy doesn’t make it I am going to be completely destroyed.
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This was around 2 in the morning:
I am in complete hysterics….
the puppy didn’t make it… I accidentally fell asleep for about and hour and when I woke up and went to check on her… she wasn’t breathing. I touched her and she was stiff and lifeless, so I guess she died when I fell asleep… she died curled up in shoe box that ended up being soaked in what I am assuming was her own pee…
I just can’t shake the feeling of hold stiff the was, how something that was so goddamn sweet and soft and loving and living could now be dead and cold and stiff…
It looks like she died in her sleep, which is good… she hadn’t been able to sleep all day because she was in so much pain. You probably think I am composed when I am typing this but I’m fucking not.
I’ve been crying for 3 hours straight… I can’t fucking stop shaking and just, fuck.
My sister texted me earlier thanking me for watching her puppy…
Her puppy was already dead.
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This is the puppy that died a few hours ago… I took the second picture about an hour before we took her to the vet, because she was so goddamn lethargic that it broke my fucking heart. This was after I tried to stand her up… and she just fell over like this.
If you ever think your dog has parvo, never assume that you are paranoid and never let a vet being closed stop you.
I was ignorant and did not know my vet was on call, otherwise I would have made my sister call the vet earlier, and maybe this poor baby would still be alive.
Never second guess yourself if your dog acts sick like this, take her to the vet no matter what the cost, because I promise, you will never forgive yourself if you don’t.
Everyone who owns a dog should look up and become familiar with the symptoms of parvo…
This puppy was my two year old nephew’s baby…
I will never forgive myself for this poor puppy’s death.
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10 in the morning, still no sleep:
My dad blames me for the death of that poor puppy..he keeps hinting at the fact that I should have had my other sister call the vet that morning, and maybe she’d still be alive.
I already blame myself enough for being so ignorant to the fact that the vet is always on call for emergencies, so trust me, Dad, I’ve got you covered. You don’t have to worry about blaming me, I’m doing that on my own.
My sister knows about the puppy now, I told her to keep the puppysitting money, I don’t want to be paid for the death of a dog.
Mom and Dad just buried the puppy, which means after an hour of not crying, I am crying again. It’s just insane to think that the puppy that I was holding, cuddling, and taking care of earlier is now laying under several feet of dirt in the cold, dark earth. My brain can’t comprehend or handle that.
They wrapped her body up and put it outside in a rubber maid tub at 2:30 this morning because since she has parvo, they didn’t want to keep her inside until she was to be burried and risk exposing our older dog to the virus.
Dad said she was still warm when he went to bury her… Something inside me doesn’t want to accept it, tells me that maybe she wasn’t even dead, maybe she was still alive when they took her outside this morning… but then I remember how stiff and lifeless she was when I touched her, and that something inside me loses the argument.
I cried for 5 hours straight, and the crying is coming back again…
I think it’s time I try to rest this senseless brain.
I’ll see you when I do.
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This was just a few minutes ago:
Now my cat is getting sick all over the place and it’s this really unhealthy looking color…
If my cat dies too I am going to blow my fucking face off.
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what a beautiful fox
Kaylin!
I will own every fox in this world.
Goddamn it, I will
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WHAT THE FUCK.
I am supposed to have until 9 pm to finish this assignment, but the math program is an hour ahead. I told the professor about this earlier but he was like “Oh, don’t worry, the server is just in a different time zone, it won’t do anything.”
WELL GUESS WHAT MOTHER FUCKER?
Your program just locked me the fuck out.
Go suck a fuck.